Sisters?

My husband and I are here in PA helping out with his mom who had open heart surgery.His brother flew down from Canada and his sister who lives here in Pa have come to be with her till she can get around better.Now my husband loves his mom,dad and brother very much.His sister on the other hand is another matter.She has been angry with him for a long time.Some is because he was (gasp) a big brother and some is because he jacked her husband up for being an ass.Keep in mind my husband is 42 and his sister is 39 or 40.The incident with her husband happened almost 20 years ago.Any way jump forward to present time.She has 2 sons.Loud,disrespectful,lying,destructive,violent,evil monsters who enjoy hurting animals and treat everyone who has the misfortune of being around them like crap.She allows this and refuses to allow anyone to so much as say no to them. Insisting she will raise her kids her way cause her childhood was so bad and she will keep them from that.So for the last 2 days they boys have been here at his parents house with all of us.This evening his sister became offended when my husband and I said the boys could not have yogurt that was bought for my father in law.So she proceeded to tell my husband off loudly in front of her 2 delinquent bastards. Angry that someone said No to her kids.She stormed off in a huff after making a huge scene and saying she will not come back as long as we are here.Which is a blessing for us.This is not the first fit she has thrown,but it is the first she has thrown around me.I did not say a word because I did not want to upset my mother in law.
  We have been up here a week and every day it is harder to stay and see how my husband is separated from his family.They treat him differently and they constantly bring up things from his distant past to put him down.All in front of our 15yo daughter who is here with us.He doesn't let me say anything and it is so hard for me not to.I am not someone who can hold my tongue well.This trip has really shown me how much his family judges him and I know why he chooses to live hundreds of miles from them.It also illustrates the difference between family and relatives.

Lab results

My dr's office called today and told me my liver tests were "abnormal" so I am not to start the medication for RA.That sucks because without it I am stiff and sore all over.So I am once again kind of stuck.Well on the bright side my youngest 3 are having a great time with their friends and grandpa.Tonight I will be going over there and visiting for a little while.

Second post today

Well I posted once today,but oh well I can post again.Today is turning into a yucky day.Since I have not mentioned it yet I will now.I have an auto immune disease that has caused damage to my liver,digestive track, pancreas and heart.For this disorder and the damage it causes I take many pills a day and I have changed my diet to avoid fat and cholesterol,but with all the running around and dealing with funeral stuff I have neglected my body and now I seem to be paying for it.Tomorrow I see my rheumatologist  for blood work so I will see what this stress has done to me.Until then I will push fluids and let my stomach rest by not eating.Sometimes that is all I can do.That and sleep.No matter how much I sleep I can always seem to sleep more.

I have no idea

I have declared today as my day off.For the last 2 weeks I have been going none stop and I need some me time.Honestly I feel kind of selfish,but my house has thrown up on itself my kids have no clean clothes (neither do my husband or myself! lol) so today is my day to catch up on stuff here.So I guess it is not really a day off after all.Oh well at least it is a day that I am not going to anyone else's house.They will survive a day without me.I hope.

Why do we have to title each post?

They must want to get me frazzled.I mean it took me enough time just to come up with a name for this blog.Well today since I am feeling down and irritable I am going to write about things that make me happy.

For one is my kids.Right now the 3 youngest are gone to various friends and relatives to visit and that is a nice break.Yes I love my kids and they give me plenty of joy and comfort,but they are at times a bit loud.This is an old picture of them,but one of my favorites. 2 are age 5 and 1 is age 6 in the picture.They are now almost 12 and 13.Next year we will have 5 teenagers in the house.What a joy.

The next are my oldest daughters.Allyisa can always make me laugh and Serena is such a gentle caring person.I am blessed to have them. Serena is 18 and Allyisa just turned 15 in July.

 My husband is my best friend and has spoiled me rotten.I told him once he has ruined me for any other man and he said "that is the point my love."He is my rock and my salvation.

 My sister Debbie is my friend and I can ramble away at her and we can spark up a conversation almost anytime.Since we live together that is a good thing.

 My pekingese Princess Mugwhump III.She is my spoiled little princess and I love to cuddle with her.A few times a day she gets frisky and plays with her toys or socks and loves to run around the living room.At first I did not realize she was playing and I got nervous because she sounded vicious,but now we know it is all play and we find it funny.We got her in November 2009 and she settled right in.She is most definatly my baby and spends most of her time as close to me as possible.I try to take her with me when ever I can.When I go to take care of my dad (he is disabled and my brother and I take care of him) she likes to go and sit with him.I think she finds it funny when the cats try to jump on him and she is there.She laughs at them.Well that is enough for now it is time to head to dad's and start dinner.

Mom

While I do not expect many people to read this I feel the need to write it.My mother passed away on Aug7,2010 and while packing her things I found a journal she had written to my brother,myself and my children.After reading that I realized that someday when I am gone my children and maybe even grand children will read this and get to know me better.Maybe it will help them get over my loss.I know that knowing what my mother believed in and reading her thoughts on things has helped me.I still feel like it is a nightmare and I will wake up soon,but I also know that she is safe and healthy now.

Tonight my brother and I wrote a tribute to her and posted it on facebook.I will post it here as well for whoever my wish to read this.

This is a Facebook and printed tribute to our beloved mom “Elizabeth Sawyer”. Now she would not know anything about this electronic entity called “Facebook”, and those who knew her would laugh and agree. This is for the people that knew her but could not attend the memorial service and even for those who didn’t. When mom passed on August 7 2010 at around 7:30 AM, I felt that part of me died with her, so this is my electronic message in a bottle, or maybe this is just for our closure and to share some of her wonderful spirit with others. For those who did not know her let us assure you that she was a kind, loving and funny person. She loved nothing more than to bring a smile to the face of others and really loved to practice spontaneous acts of kindness. We would like to share with you all a story of how she brought a smile to the face of her good friend the late Gladys Loar. It was the occasion of Gladys’s birthday and mom sent an E-mail asking Mark (her son) to bring her a gift for Gladys. This is the E-mail she sent to Mark: “This is Gladys’s birthday and the only thing she has mentioned wanting is a fifth of Jack Daniel’s. Now, I don’t know why anyone would want a fifth of Mr. Daniels or any other man. I mean, she didn’t even say what fifth she wanted. What’s up with that? But I mustn’t be too hard on her, she is getting a year older and maybe she doesn’t think she can handle a whole man anymore. A woman has to know her limitations. So please stop by the alphabet (ABC) store and pick Jack up. I understand that is where he hangs around. Better pick up a bottle of whiskey too. We’ll have to cut him up after he gets here and you know that could get kind of messy and painful too.”Now we do not know if she found this or if she wrote it herself, but it is a great example of her quirky sense of humor. Giving to others brought more joy to her than receiving the finest jewels. Although she never had much she always was the first to give of what she had. Anyone who knew mom well knew her since of humor was unusual, and that she could find the humor in almost any situation. When mom was still living in Williamsburg we had a series of break-ins in our house while I was in boot camp. Most people would decide to install a security system. Not our mom, she decided that the best way to prevent further break-ins was to put a $20.00 dollar bill outside on the patio table. Since the burglar was desperate enough to break in, they must really need the money. She always saw the best in people. There is no getting around the fact that our mom was physically ill most of her adult life and she learned to deal with it through humor and prayer. She always said that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. I guess God knew that she was a strong woman. She faced death more than once and came back with even a greater appreciation of everything in life. Her strength was an inspiration to us all. Many people who face a chronic illness can sometimes be angry but mom had no time for anger. One of her favorite prayers was, “Thank you dear God for all you have given me, for all you have taken away from me, for all you have left me.” I have a prayer. Dear Lord; please except our mom in Heaven with all the glory and grace and let the angels sound their trumpets, for I truly believe you are receiving a saint! Amen. She blessed the lives of anyone who knew her. She will be sorely missed… Mark & Dawn

A short autobiography

So I guess I will start this by telling you a little about me.I was born and raised in Hampton,Virginia.My mother and father separated when I was about 5 and my father remarried a woman named Linda who had 4 children.In total I had 8 siblings.3 were from my fathers first marriage, myself and my brother Mark from his second and 4 from his third.Although I am related to them my older half siblings and I were never close and now I really do not think of them as siblings.More like distant cousins.There were teens when I was born so I really was not around them allot.My step siblings were closer,but as time has gone by I have lost touch with them except for my younger sister Sally.

My mother,brother Mark and I moved to Williamsburg in 1983 with our grandmother.In 1988 I got pregnant and gave birth prematurely to a baby boy I named Stephen Michael.He passed away after 1 hour and 15 min which lead me to a reckless and downward spiral that ended with the birth of my daughter.I may write more about that later,but for now it is more than I can talk about.

I graduated from Lafayett High in 1990.A year later I graduated from Lafayette School of Practical Nursing and became a LPN.That year I also married my first husband Jesus Sandate III and gave birth to my oldest daughter Serena.We went on to have 4 children.Serena,Allyisa,Robin,and Austin.In 2003 he and I separated and our divorce was finalized in  2007. February 14,2009 I married my best friend Carl Davis Wright III.We live in Hampton with our combined 5 children.

That in a nutshell is my life.